Do You Want to Know God, Or His Game?

Are You Getting to Know God, Or His Game?

{This is a big question that requires much more than a blog post. Here today, I will simply examine one molecule on one piece of ice that sits at the tip top of the iceberg. A question like this deserves a book, of which I’m sure there are many.}

I’ve caught myself asking “Why?” a lot lately. After a decision here, a decision there, an event here and a disappointment there, my knee-jerk reaction has been to look toward the sky and ask God, “Why?” Why did this happen? Why do I feel this way? Why couldn’t this have worked out? Or, why did this person do this or that? It’s endless and relentless and I’m surprised God hasn’t put some sort of divine muzzle on me already. But I guess that’s not really how God works.

Instead, He is gentle with us. He sees us (as a friend’s blog reminded me recently). He loves us. He cares for us. At least, these are the things I tell other people. These are things I write on my blog and make readers think I understand and know with everything in me. But the truth is, I think I often doubt God’s love and His ways more than I care to admit, even to myself. You see, in all of this recent asking of “Why?”, I’ve realized that my chief goal has not been to understand God; it has been to understand what God is up to, to understand His game, as if He has a game, and He is playing it.

Deep down I think weird and dark things like this: If I can know why something happened, then I can know what God is up to. And if I know what God is up to, then I can know what’s coming next. And that means, I can predict what leads God to do or allow certain things in my life. And then, jackpot! I can decipher what I need to do in order to get what I want from God.

If you are so pure-of-heart, and this isn’t resonating with you yet, then think of it this way. When you are in a relationship with someone, in order to feel close to them and to grow to love them, you must get to know them. In order to get to know them, you spend time with them. You ask them questions. You allow them to get to know you, too. What you do not do is camp out behind a tree and watch them from a distance through a set of binoculars calculating their every move.

-Susan buys coke from soda machine

-Susan opens can of coke

-Susan takes two sips of coke

-Susan says “hello” to coworker who passes by

What have you learned about Susan from your little detective work? Susan was thirsty or tired or bored and so she drank a coke. What have you learned about her character? Do you feel closer to her now that you learned that she drank a coke this afternoon? Are you now on a path to a loving relationship? NO. Why? Because you were simply interested in her behavior, rather than who she was. In order to love someone, you must want to know who that someone is, aside from his or her behavior.

Sometimes when I’m being a whiny, why-asker, what I’m actually doing is watching God  from behind a tree with my binoculars. I’m not actually interested in getting to know who He is; I’m more interested in knowing what He’s going to do next, and what that means for me and my life and the things I want.

I think I would stomp my foot and demand “Why?!” less often if I trusted who God was. I’m never going to fully know why anyways (Isaiah 55:8-9). Not until I am an immortal being who lives above and outside of time and can see from beginning to end. Not until then, which will be never. So while I’m here, maybe it’s more worth my time to get to know the immortal being who lives above and outside of time. To get to know and trust Him and to just finally put the binoculars down. He may already be much closer than I think.

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  1. Ángel. on January 29, 2015 at 7:45 am

    I think I could not agree more.
    Stress and anxiety is nothing but distrust in God and lack of faith in our lives.
    We play the game to know everything, we want to play the game to know Him and end
    we realize that what we want is to know the why and the solution to our fears.

    And there is nothing worse than thinking about our fears, that feel more fear …
    As Tim Keller said, if you think about seeking God for happiness you will notice that
    not obtain or happiness or God.

    Of course, neither is it a matter of spiritualize everything (or YES), but the reality is that God
    NOT WANT to sin with our mistrust, NOT WANT to sin with our “why”
    if that leads to distrust. He wants us not be unbelieving, and we create. Even so …
    after immersing ourselves in our deepest sorrows voluntarily, He extends his
    mighty hand and rescues us.

    How long are we going to fight that tendency to escape the Truth?
    Precisely the more we fight, the more we will be sunk.
    He has the power to rescue us, we must carry our cross and trust.

    P.D: Sorry, I used the translator.

    Thank you for your post.

  2. Matt on January 29, 2015 at 8:43 am

    Let’s face it, we’re only human. As humans we have a big weakness. We don’t understand what we don’t understand, so we tend to blame God for our humanness. When we don’t understand or are disappointed by something, that we thought we understood, then it must be God testing us or playing with us. In doing so we are applying our humanness to God.

    As humans we are always testing those around us. We want to know how loyal, trustworthy, hard working, courageous, and loving they are. We test or partners, employers, employees, and complete strangers. Through this testing we determine if they are worthy of us. That’s a human thing and not a God thing. In God’s eyes we are worthy, always.

    When we can accept. a simple truth, that we will not always understand why, it’s easier to accept God. When we get to that point we can start asking a different question. God, how can I change this situation in a way that brings you honor and shows the love that you have shown to me?

    Having said that, I have to admit that I still ask why. I’m only human after all.

  3. vrwhiteford on January 29, 2015 at 10:29 am

    Wow. I’ve needed to hear this for a long, long time. Thanks for posting.

  4. bemqueminhamaedisse on September 16, 2015 at 11:36 am

    Reblogged this on Bem Que Minha Mãe Disse !.

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